Dealing With Depression

I'm trying to learn how to be confident again. Depression can take away so many things. Even when you get better, confidendence is the last thing to return. I'm scared of everything: the future, the past, the present. All I want to do is write and I can't find a job anywhere, writing or otherwise. My thoughts go down on paper or into cyberspace but it does little to quiet the nagging monster inside me that says I'm no good and never will be. I realize this is a dark post, but I need to write every day no matter what's in my head or in my heart.